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15 – Day 9 – the message to hold on to

Aug
21

Day 9 : Post some words of wisdom that speak to you

“I like to imagine that the world is one big machine. You know, machines never have any extra parts. They have the exact number and type of parts they need. So I figure if the entire world is a big machine, I have to be here for some reason. And that means you have to be here for some reason, too.”

Brian Selznick, The Invention of Hugo Cabret

I’ll leave the sentence to speak for itself. No explanation needed.

14 – Day 8 – the fight to stay alive

Aug
21

Day 8 : Share something you struggle with

I guess I shouldn’t be going around the issue, now that it has been around for some time.

 

Not only my weight is a big problem, the face that my whole body is a catch-22 just gets too stressful at times.

I started law school not even weighing 40 kgs, having absolutely nothing on me and looking like an emaciated boy. No lie. As school started rolling in, biological hours started going awry and so did eating habits and resting habits. Hence, massive weight gain. If you think I’m being too much, try gaining nearly 20 kgs. That’s already half the size I was. So yes, that was quite a big change.

Things started going even further south when I started working, and all physical activity just completely went out the window. 2011-2012 were quite literally the worst times my body ever had to endure, peaking at getting obscenely near to liver failure. Slowly, I decided to change for the better and developed a jogging habit. Things started going for the better, slightly. However, I didn’t push myself enough. Pushing myself that hard just seemed a bit pointless when you only have a couple of hours on the weekends, you see?

Enter grad school. The big move to Singapore, walk walk walk everywhere. What’s a little sunburn, but what mattered is that I could pull more runs. Living right across the Botanic Gardens just seemed the perfect fit. 2 KMs slowly became 5, which then became 7, and 10 and then 12. I braved getting involved in runs, despite lacking techniques and sucking so bad in my timing. But hey, as long as it gets me moving, right? Wrong. Law grad school = bye bye rest. To be honest, I’m still not sure how I managed to stay alive with such little sleep and nutrition (Mind you, I moved abroad not knowing how to cook. Bloody hell, I didn’t even have the guts to turn on the gas stove), I still think it’s a miracle that I’m still alive now.

However, it seems that one can only do so much damage to their own body. Arrythmia is no joke, apparently. And what sucks is that I’ve had it all along. Gone were my days of long runs, and I still tried to maintain a steady gym schedule. But to be honest, it’s gets mentally tiring working out to get healthy and ending up collapsing in the process, a few times over. Having to take medicines prior to a workout just so I could survive, it just feels absolutely ridiculous. Sure, I try to regulate my intakes and my resting hours. But in all honesty, that can only help so much.

 

Hence, the big struggle: maintaining my body when all it has been doing throughout my whole existence is staging a coup against me.

13 – Day 7 – the melodies that speak

Aug
07

Day 7 : List 10 songs that you’re loving right now

(as always, in no particular order)

1. Luke Sital-Singh – You Always Hurt The One You Love

2. Allen Stone – Where You’re At

3. AURORA – Half The World Away

4. George Ezra – Drawing Board

5. Nitin Sawhney feat. Paul McCartney – My Soul

6. Alt-J – Warm Foothills

7. Jamie Lidell – Green Light

8. Mansun – Electric Man

9. Richard Hawley – Serenade Of Blue

10. James Blake – A Case Of You

12 – Day 6 – the way you do the things you do

Aug
07

Day 6 : Five ways to win your heart

1. Be on-time

Look, I don’t care. This one is definitely on the top of this list.I try not to expect much, living in Jakarta out of every possible choices on earth. But seriously, if you can be on-time to any appointment, I would know that you are making the extra effort to live up to your promise, and to show your respect to me. And that is a big plus for me.

2. Be chill

By chill, I don’t mean a “yo chill dude” behaviour. What I mean is when you get over-clingy to someone you are or intend to be close with? I know people usually would want to spend as much time with the other person, but a little acknowledgement that everyone needs to have a personal life would be very much appreciated.

3. Have a certain taste for music

I’m not asking much here. I know I have a very peculiar taste in music, so to have someone with at least a similar taste of music would be awesome, but rather impossible. However, as long as you have a certain taste instead of just an “oh I like most stuff all the time, I mostly just listen to random songs on whatever radio is on at the time” behaviour, or even worse, the “meh whatever,  they all sound the same to me”, which just means you don’t like music. I can’t deal with that. I’d rather have someone be “you know what, I still think NSYNC is the greatest gift ever to humanity, and there’s nothing you can do to change that.”. But that way, I know you have a taste.

4. Like coffee

Okay, this is more like me asking you to tolerate my coffee habit. If I’m around you, chances are I’m gonna need to ask you for some coffee time.. most of the time. Hence, if you’re an anti-coffee person.. Well, we kinda have a problem then.

5. Be into football

This one might sound very trivial. But honestly, having been watching football since I was 2 years old, this is an important thing to me. Very important, in fact. And I’ve always found that the connections that I’ve made always easily stepped up a level once I found out that the other person likes football. If anything, it’s my favourite conversation topic. Ever. And yeah, bonus points for you if you like the same clubs (yes, multiple. I’m being generous here) I do 😉

11 – Day 5 – the sights, the sound, the experience.

Aug
07

Day 5 : List five places that you want to visit

In no particular order, the five places that I want need to visit are:

India

Now this, I’ve always wanted to go. Nearly everything about the country has intrigued me for the longest time. My love story with Indian food during my stay in Singapore was the stuff of legend. Considering that now I have so many friends in various parts of the country, it’s almost a big shame how I haven’t visited the country yet.

Van Gogh Museum, Amsterdam

Yes, I know I’ve been here before, but it was back still in winter time. I need, and I must, go back there during spring or summer and experience the sunflowers, on top of the marvellous collection in the museum. I know for sure that place is one place I will always enjoy being at, no matter what time. I know I haven’t been to a lot of museums in my life, but I do know for sure that I am that much in love with this place.

Hawai’i

Usually when I tell people about this particular wish on my bucket list, they just go “Why don’t you just go to Bali? It’s pretty much the same”. I know I haven’t made it there yet, but I’m sure it’ll be different. I’m not so much a beach person, but I certainly would love me some ocean breeze. Plus, the culture and the way people just live so chill most of the time, I just need to experience it at least once.

Liverpool

Pretty much an obvious thing to be put here. I need to be in Liverpool, end of story. Why? Where do you want me to start? The music? The culture? The football? Do I need to explain myself any further on this one?

Weserstadion, Bremen

So yes, blame the Werderaner in me. But seriously, I personally find it infuriating how I’ve been to Germany twice and yet both times I couldn’t manage to visit Bremen. Yes, still mentally kicking myself in the head for this. I do need to visit Bremen, with the special agenda which is to watch a Werder game (duhhhh) in Weserstadion. Plus, a stadium by the riverside? With the world’s awesome-est floodlights and all? Hell yes, I definitely need to be there.